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This week’s black and white post is going to be very different from the rest. I decided to share my playlist after one of you lovely folks asked what inspires me. The answer is music. Truth be told it’s one of the few things that inspires me. The right song can ignite a spark in you that can burn through a lifetime. I’m one of those people who doesn’t listen to a lot of mainstream music. In fact, you’ll catch me listening to the same songs and artists over and over again. Most of the songs I love listening to take me back to a particular moment in time and hearing the words and sound feels very much like de ja vu. I’m one for deep thinking so music with lyrics that have substance tend to move me.

One might say I tend to be drawn to sad songs. They seem to be the ones that move me the most. Whenever I feel down, I listen to music. And if the song can move me to tears in that moment then it means it’s giving me the comfort I need to let it all out. I always say after sadness comes joy so it’s no wonder I feel inspired to find joy in other things after listening to these songs. The first song on my playlist, Holocene by Bon Iver, is one I accidentally came across when looking for inspiration on Youtube after feeling unsure of what type of content to create. And now it is my go to song whenever I feel stuck. I’m actually listening to it right now while typing up this post. It always seems to get me writing down creative thoughts. And then we have A Life That’s Good which I came across while watching the TV show Nashville. It’s a song of gratitude. One that makes me feel very grateful for the little things in life like family and friends.

The list goes on, and so do the circumstances in which I came about them. You can listen to my playlist here to see the type of music that inspires me. And hopefully it gives you an insight to more of me.***If you want to edit like me, you can! Grab a copy of my eBook here.***

August 18, 2017
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This last week saw me doubting myself at almost every turn. Call me naive, but I didn’t think it’d be something that I expected to happen especially at this point. When I made the decision to take my blog full time, I was full of so much confidence so much so that nothing scared me. Almost as if I was on top of the world. Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t lost my confidence, I just experienced a moment of weakness by letting certain fears occupy a space in my head. The thing with self doubt is that only you can really talk yourself out of it. Others may try to convince you otherwise regarding the things that make you question yourself. But if you’ve not managed to convince yourself, these doubts will linger on. The effects of this is often very crippling. Almost as if you’ve experienced some kind of mind paralysis. You’re stuck with these thoughts and you can’t find your way out. Having experienced this a number of times, I know exactly what it feels like to allow myself get caught up in it.

I’m a strong believer in learning from past experiences. One of my favourite speakers phrased it rightly; success leaves clues. I always tend to think back to the last time something similar happened and try to figure out how I managed to get myself out of it. Seeing that my time is valuable being my own boss means I cannot afford to lose any of it wallowing in something negative for too long. To regain control of my mind, I went out for walks which is always a good idea. Getting a bit of fresh air and a change of environment is a great place to start. Giving more thought to this, I felt it was time to plan another short holiday so I got one booked for September. I listened to Holocene by Bon Iver over and over again. Although, it could be described as a sad song, it does tend to get me writing in my journal thus allowing my creative juices to flow. I faced my fears by revisiting my old work to see how far I’ve come which is always a good source of inspiration. That’s why I never delete old posts. It serves as a good reminder of progress to myself and others alike. It makes me feel even more human cause I know I started from somewhere and now I’m here.

I’m excited to say the weekly vlogs will be making a comeback on my YouTube channel so be prepared to see more of me. I’m looking forward to sharing  my new life and hopefully give you folks some insight as to what it’s like to pursue a career in blogging. I’ve got a few projects lined up and looking forward to taking you all along with me.

August 8, 2017
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For the past couple of weeks I’ve been asking myself the same question over and over again. What is going on? This is mostly due to the events  that have taken place very recently in the UK. Also, hearing troubling stories from friends sharing difficult experiences is making all kinds of worried. It’s very easy for me to think worse case scenarios in the face of difficult times. Trying to gain control of my thoughts is something I’m learning which isn’t easy especially with someone like me who tends to bottle a lot in. I was away in Mykonos when I woke up to the news of the attack in Manchester. I remember going through the motions in my mind and finding a way to make peace with it as I always try to do to avoid my thoughts spiralling out of control. When I returned back to Manchester, I could tell that things were different. My Church happen to be located in St Ann’s Square where flowers and messages of condolences are being put down. I and Craig were asked to volunteer on Saturday to help with the candle stands in the Church as people kept coming in to light candles in memories on the people who lost their lives. It was hard to watch people cry. One thing that was clear though was how it’s brought people together. I remember the curate saying to me how a man wanted to buy a condolence card from the book stand and was short of fifty pence. She said, a number of people waiting in line to sign the condolence book offered to give him the fifty pence which was very beautiful to watch. It made me hopeful. But sadly, that same night, another attack would take place in London.

As much as I appear somewhat public with my life by sharing on my blog and social media, it’s sometimes very hard for me to gather my thoughts when bad things happen. All I want to do is be alone and listen to music that somehow holds a meaning to it all and eases my worries. One that makes me feel like everything will be okay. Having accidentally stumbled upon “Jane The Virgin”, I can’t help but think it’s fate. Something about the way things can go all so wrong but somehow they manage to find their way back to a place where everything was fine even in the midst of troubles. Trying times are to be expected and they draw strength from the relationships they have. Something about the music when kind words are spoken make me want to tear up from all the emotions I’ve been bottling inside. Laughter is not absent too because tears of joy is proof that it will all be okay, again. As I write this post I’ve got Moody Jane playing in the background and I can’t help but hold on to the feeling of hope. Hope for a better us, and hope for a better world.

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June 6, 2017
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